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Saturday, 07 July 2007

  • Me and My Baby

    We Finally did  it .. me and my baby had a date! i am soo happy.. I mean we have gotten to know each other so well.. that When the time came it was so normal and natural. I mean I wasnt shy or uncomfortable with him.. actuall i never really am.. But this time.. this time Means alot cuz if i feel funny then things aren't right..

    He was so romantic and aggressive.. yet sweet but also His New York self.. I loved spending personal time with him like that.. there was so many things I found out about him in just that 20-25 mintues of watching him get ready and us talking.. it was all soo amazing and beautiful..

    But deep down i feel things are never going to change.. I dont see us being apart. I am excited to seeing our future.. I don't feel discouraged about it.. I am pretty confident actually..
    I feel as though we have grown so much.. and we will keep growing.

    We have a wonderful connection and we are so deep. it is like we are in a dream. I know i have touched a dream and I know just by the way he acts with me.. the way his emotions about me just pore out of him i know He feels he has touched a dream as well!

Thursday, 14 June 2007

  • Jaan Meri Ja Rahi Sanam

    I love this song.. it reminds me of my baby jay! we have such lovely memories.. when i think back all i can do is admit my love for him. It lows through my veins. He makes everything so much better including myself.. i am improving myself and getting myself better for the better of me and my mom and for the future.

    I cry just thinking about how i feel for him. So strong, so deep. Powerful like a force coming over me.
    I want all ties to him.. and lucky for me he feels the same. He wants to be connected and involved with me.. and I am blessed.. i thank god!

    so because of that and things at home everything seems to be looking up.. My passion and love for family. which is just my mom and jay Has made me see the mistakes i have made and want to change them. and change them fast! there are alot of things i have to learn in my life. and FAST!! and the last thing is what makes me so called happy..

    Well i gotta go..talk to you later.. thanx for listening to me! god Bless !

Saturday, 26 May 2007

  • Love.

     What is it we know about love? How soon do we think it can happen?
    Does It mean we are not in tune with ourself if we deny it? I think very so.
    I feel we shouldn't hide how feel just because We are afraid of getting hurt, or because we Don't want people to know. What is the  Point?
      When you can look up to the sky an d actually see the world moving thats love?
    When you can see yourself getting better and can change the things you want to change about youself.. thats love.
    Smells and Sites are Great memories of your love ones.. There is always a little piece of them following you around and when you can tell how your lover is doing thats love.
      So you may ask How do i know these things are love. When your heart double beats when you see your lover, When you feel a hint of jealousy around other people of the same sex of you.. even if not jealous very protective and Possessive of your love one. How you Feel lost when your lover isn't around. These are all signs of love.. and more.. 
       But bottom line is. When you have great or sad feelings toward a persons departure or the coming then you have a deep emotion for them that can be called love. But not just any feeling i Mean when it hits you hard. When you think about this person at dinner. How you can See there presence in your dreams or daydreams you are in love.. Just Admit it and enjoy it. Life is much better and more fulfiling that way!



Saturday, 05 May 2007

  • Jay

    I have been Feeling abit crazyed lately.
    I feel like i am in love. Like I am just oozing with passion and sensuality..
    But i also feel special. which is most important.
    I feel respected as well as adored and longed for.
    All thanx For Jay. He has been such a turning point in my life.
    I learn new things from him and I feel so comfortable and open with him.
    I feel so good i dont even feel the need to start a convo. and when we have them they are as easy and natural as they come.We Have alot going on.. He is very busy with work and everything.. But that is great. we can Long  for each other in the distance of reality.. Cuz When we get back together the fire burns stronger!
    I love his body and how it moves.. He isnt a slim man. Which is great because I find meat more sexy!!
    he is taller than me! another great and he has the most handsome smile ever!! it just lights his face up!
    I will tell you more later or tomorrow.. Sooo tired and I have alot to do today! so night night!

Monday, 09 April 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Devdas
    Maar Dala
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    My thoughts

    Damn. I have noticed lately i am not using my brain.
     I need to think more. I am working on it.  But i feel as though i am just making excuses.
     I want to better myself. So i think I need to work Hard and have total dedication. 
    I do need time for myself or else i would forget wat that is.
    So I have some goals i want to lay down on the line..


    1. Never wonder what someone maybe saying.  It will bring my confidence level down.
    2. Have more energy and devotion to complete task.
    3. Pay more attention to what i am doing and saying.
    4. Be more responsible.
    5. No Father Figures!!
    6. Have more Focus!
    7.  Never Front.